Monday, June 29, 2009

Hard?cruel?non kind???..

I stick to my decision,maybe you wonder why my heart so hard..You also hate me like that right?Until you asked me went to teach my friend how to be hard and break with her bf as her heart always too soft to do that..haha....
When i told my friends that i already break up and single..They asked me is that true? why i looked like nothing only? I will give a smile as reply...Maybe all of you will think my heart is very hard..
I also dont know how to explain...Just let it be how you all think of me...
Why my tear stil will dropping when i know many that think my heart is very hard?It already quite a long time i din cry d...
I never hope anyone can understand me well...Cause that is impossible...
I have to try dont mind how people think of me...
As my holiday going to finish,i felt that i am heart-free...
Like nobody can take my heart away d...
Maybe that will make me more fresh...
Looking forward to my new sem...
LIM KAY LING must gambatteh yor!!!
Rachel,your family love you,God love you,and i love you too.Thats already enough...:)

iPod settlement

My brother set up the new i-pod.He fail it..After that,we settle together and we still failed..
After mt brother back to pj,i tried myself..I found that i no the apple ID ...If i want get the apple ID,i have to key in credit card number..I felt it weird so i skip that. I started to be hot under the collar after worked hard for an hour still get nothing..
I wan give up d,then my friend found me that i am moody and asked me what happen..
I told him about my porblem,he help me search and give me a link finally..
By his help,i get the apple ID d..i get to insert songs into the i-pod d..
Wao,thanks him very much..Muackz...haha
The feeling of done of a touch mission is so great,especially when you think give up but finally u did it..haha..Thank you....actually without his help,i sure cant get to it..haha.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Family Day

Finally,my family reunite again.We treasure this moment..We went to celebrate belated father's day..Went to a delicious dinner in seremban..We have a enjoyable chatting time..haha..Since we all talk nonstop,and the restaurant become noisier as we enter it..

We talked about working in the society nowadays..My sister said the most fast method for you to promote and success is backstab others and make you climb higher...That even better for you to work very hard or overtime in office..
Last time,i may meet situation like this before when i worked part time..Actually i am nt mind they backstab me as i just a temporary worker..haha..I dont hope to promote or other else..I just wan get my pay then enough..Maybe because i am a cowards as well..In future,i dont know what will happen..I may don know how to be disguise and dunno how to make my boss happy..haha..So,i think i would not get promote very fast to high position ya..haha...Quite worry ya..hehe

Why this world will become like this??haiz..sad
Luckily,i still have my lovely family to depend on..haha

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Environmentalist Restorance

As usual,i enjoyed my tv time..I watched a introduce food programme this afternoon.There is a restorance that promote organic food..All the tasty and unhealthy malaysian food become healthy and delicious in the chef's hand..All the customer give compliment to the restorance and happy that they can eat healthy...
Other than provide food,the restorance owner also provide some education.They promote recycle,encourage reading,and even the customer wash their own plate after having their meals..That was cool...If you did those things that i state,the boss will give you a chop to collect..When you collect till an amount,you can get discount or the boss will give you some organic product..That's amazing...This restorance make the public know to take care their health and change their mindset that nutritious food are no taste.haha...In addition,the public also feel the important to recycle and like to reading d...Thats was great..

The restorance just like my dream restorance..They did what i want..haha..They are loss money at first but they still happy...
Wish i can go that restorance...It is in taman desa billion,kajang...
I must persuade my mum:" Mummy,bring me go.........." haha...

Hope you all like this restorance too...haha

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Help her??

My neighbour asked me give a hand in by tuition with her daughter who just standard 6...I agree.And tuition subjects are all language subject which i also quite weak in...Oh my god...She required for three days tuition,that is from friday until sunday..Mean i have to back home from upm on thursday night and keep teaching..After consideration,i decide to shorter the tuition to two days..I asked my mum tell the aunty as she always meet the aunty..What i get from my mum is she said she very disappointed with her daughter's result..Hope i can help her and her daughter..But,i have to back upm on sunday..There will be a rush for me if the tuition remain three days..What should i do? If she talk like begging me sure will soften my heart later. The tuition is starting by tonight..How ??I should remain for two days..please...

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Panda Eyes

Last night slept at 2 am,my usual sleeping time..I already used to it..However,now count down for back upm,so i have to change it earlier..
My mind din rest well last night..Dont know how much and how long i dream of...And i din remember what the dream is about...All i know is it's a nightmare...Unhappy dream indeed..
I was shocked when i look at the mirror this morning..I jz looked like a panda...My eyes seem so so so bad...haiz...I have to sleep at afternoon? I worry i cant sleep earlier tonight,so better cancel my noon sleep..I will tidy up somethings else instead of sleeping..haha
Hope my panda eyes run away soon...:)

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Just TIME needed?


People said time can heal wound and Time also can use to forget someone...Is this true?

I hope i can forget you...I hope i can forget someone by time pass by?

Rachel,please stop giving chances already,he wont know,he wont change,he wont understand you..You will only end of disappointed again..Heart will pain repeatly...Stop your tears from dropping d...
Love is so pain......

I not sure i can love the one who treat me very very nice..

Thanks you very much,but i cant give you any promise right now..I m sorry..

I also not sure i can forget the one who in my heart more than a year..


I will be single..I will be single...

Single is not that hard as i think..

I will study hard,i will be tough and mature..

Get better result and learn more...I will be a better girl...

Hope i can do my best in future...I promise myself.....

Happy Day

My mum get a i-pod today,but all the siblings were fight for it..Who will win?haha...See how...hehe..
After went to kl just pass a thing to a customer,we whole family went to tarot cafe to have our dinner..This was a lovely dinner..We discuss where to travel? Hope my parent can go Australia and new zealand one day..Try rachel's best to sponsor ya..haha..
And i met jasteen there,with all my juniors...Well,i confirm which is his gf already..haha.
Have a short talk with him even long time no see d..enjoy...

Monday, June 22, 2009

Simple and Complicated LOVE



LOVE can be


COMPLICATED like hard to see and feel it

Or



SIMPLE and loving




All just depend on us...

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Singer zchen


Went to hang out with family in seremban parade..The coincident thing is the malaysia singer Zhang zchen came seremban parade for promote his new album..However,the crowd was so little...sad for him..His new album got many nice songs as my brother told me that..And he used his own money to sponsor this album de..When he asked the crowd to scream,the circumtance around is very quiet..Even he said he very disappointed with seremban people..haha..However i gt give some moral support to him as well..


I met my friend who study in upm also..She was with her bf..I asked what university her bf get in as her bf jz finish stpm..He get upm also..Wao..Congrate to her la..Then they can sweet sweet study together in upm d...So envy ya..haha..Wish you all the best la..:)

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Gathering in friend house

Today,i went to a friend's house to gathering..We decided to wait untill 5 pm then will go find another friend..My friend's father treat us eat mangosteen...We enjoy the fruit there..While waiting,we decide to play mahjong..I am new beginner in mahjong...So,i gonna learn hard.. I got win for one game o..However,no money is involve..haha..We played until dont want go another friend's house and ask her come here better..Therefore, we can continue our game..haha..However,it is an enjoyable afternoon for me...Miss you all,my friends...

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

TREASURE




Human being have a bad habit,that is we don't know how to treasure.

We only realise the important of having something after we lost the particular thing..

Is it regret after lost can help??

I heard a person said that LOST, WOEFUL and TREASURE are three brothers..

They come to you one by one.When you lost one things, you will feel woeful,and last only you know how to treasuring..

Why human don't know get the treasure first?This is the sad thing of human being......

Hope i can try my best treasuring whatever i have now...

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Pretty and Cute

I admit that i am not pretty,but why there are people who said i am cute especially for guy?

Since i was young,i never think that can describe myself as cute..How can you describe a big size person as cute?haha...wondering.....
Am i cute? haha...
Pretty and cute.???.
..

Monday, June 15, 2009

Gathering

Today we took our friends went to visit our university..We just sit inside car and drove around,but already waste more than half an hour i think..haha..After that,we just went to a friend's house..We tried our best to get to her place,as we all dont know where her house's located in..We asked the pretty girl among us to sacrify and ask people around how to go that place..For sure,the pretty was not me..haha..
After that,we went to sing k in green box.I din sang much,but still enjoyable...I like gathering like this..At last,i feel tired and not so well..Therefore,i just listen to they sang..
When i reach back home,it is the right time for dinner..Therefore,i just sit down as usual and took my dinner..All of my family members laugh at me and said why i so 'geng' and will back on time..haha...I just admit that i always that 'geng'..
At night,we whole family went to have some desserts as supper..
I already long time din being so happy,but my stomach started to get not well...Nevermind,i enjoy is enough..:)

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Normal?

When you lost something,you will start to miss it?Am i normal?When you told me that you still cant accept i m not yours already..My heart like aww....dunno how to describe it..I hope to tell you that i miss you too..I was worried you when you told me your tough situation,so that i message you..But you chose dont want reply.Maybe i really should not message you and should leave you alone..
Sometime,i wonder will you chase me again after we break?Oh my god,am i normal?I know i should know have that thought..
After thinking twice,i know what i did is better for both of us..I have to stick to my decision..I hope you can pass through this hardest situation in your life...Hope you be a better man and can handle your emotional well...All the best..

Friday, June 12, 2009

Morning

My eyes seem swollen again,probably is because of the tears last night...Hope my family wont realise that...My friend ask me to self-questioning myself that what problem i had to make this situation..Maybe i am really bad like he said...There are still a lots of questions in my mind..Who can tell me the answer? Is it still important for me to seek out the answer?? Who knows??Anyway,I have to face the change in my life toughly...Hope i can do well and recover soon....

Decision

Finally,i made that decision..We come to a deal that we have to break..I very sure i will be ok..But when i chat with you,my tears droping nonstop and my heart is so painful..I dont know this decision is right or wrong..Anyway,i made it.......

I remember we had a sweet memory..I remember how you treat me..You treat me good or bad i also remember..You are a guy who got your own opinion,you wont listen to others..Things change when you are under stressfull..You wont bother me when you are stress..Your behaviour change when you are under pressure...

When valentine day,there are no flower or celebration..It is ok for me..When 1 year anniversarry,there is also nothing happen..I told myself that all celebration is not important..I felt very happy cause i m a understanding girl friend..Izzit my understanding make you less and dont know how to care of me?i wonder...

How many time i hope you can change for me? How much effort i put? When our relationship drop down,and i feel like the distance between us is so big...I start treat you not so good as before..I think you realise that too..How many times i hope you can change and faster chase me back and tell me how important i m for you..It end of disappointed..I wonder is it because our love not strong enough or i not good enough,so u think that is not worth to change for me..

Wah,i am so happy that when you said you can change for me..I looking forward to it..1 day pass,nothing...2nd day pass,things go worst..My heart cant endure d..It was so weak...Finally,i decided d..I dont know will it make us better..I hope it make us more matured..The feeling i got now really make me cant breath..I can endure the hurt feeling again...But you seen so unhurt for twice..I really wonder should i or could i date again...

I still hope all the best for you..I dint mean want to hurt you..Please believe me..I hope you all the best too....

Worried

My pelvic that part swollen d,when i press it,i will feel painful..What happen to me?? I feel headache and tired easily..I think that maybe because i dint get enough sleep..When that swollen,it burden my mind..I always think that i am very strong de,but i wrong......My mind is full of worried now......

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Diarrhea..

Diarrhea for 2 days already...When my friends know i am diarrhea,they asked me whether i got fever and vomiting or not? Well,they scare i get the H1N1 flu?haha..That is quite funny..But my muscles painful,my headache,my diarrhea make me worry also...

Can diarrhea virus be transfer through phone or msn?haha...Those who diarrhea same with me de..Really feel very sorry to you..I dont know am i affect you or pass the virus to you..But i still feel very bad like is i pass it through you even virus wont pass through phone and msn..haha

Hope we getting better soon..haha..Cause it make me suffering from diarrhea sometime...

Finale

Come to the finale of the drama...This drama is about when the hero find he dont like what happend,he can make a wish to return back to last time and change the decision he had made..He hope this change can make a better future,but he found now even worst..Therefore,he beg for the last change..This time,everything and everyone is fine except himself..But he still feel very happy and appreciate what he get d..

If I also get the magic to return if i found the decision that i made is wrong,will my frighten to make decision will become lesser? Will it help me in my life or it will just make human keep on return and refuse to move forward? I think what we having now is good enough d..Maybe this will make people will more appreciate time and present..God always create the best for us..:-)

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Little Girl



Having a short hair....Sometimes i look at the mirror and feel myself look like a boy or a little girl..Am i be stronger and tough if i look like a little boy? I hope i will....tears pls leave me alone ya..haha..

My sis went for a christian camp d..I have to sleep alone tonight..i feeling scare because of some experience...I gt no other choice as well..Suddenly,my mum ask me whether dare to sleep alone or not? She invite me sleep together in her room on a tilam..My answer sure is yes...This moment i feel myself still like a little girl who like to stick to parent..But the feeling is so warm and great..haha...I am a little girl...Yeah!


Seminar..

My mum and i went for a insurance seminar tonight..I not really want to go,but she want me follow,so i got no choice..The speaker talked a lots about his own story..The point i get is you never try,then you will never know..As long as you put effort in it,then you will know..haha..I get to know insurance are not easy as i think..My mum want me to get a license,i have to do it..However,it doesnt mean i ahve to do insurance d..Just in case anything happen,it may help..

I also felt life is so simple and people wont stay very long in this world..And my body is not so good,always pain in many part..Quite worry also...Therefore we have to appreciate our time and do what we like..When i drove back,my mu slept inside the car..I can felt how tired my mum is..She is getting old,but i just like din growth very much..We like cant help her in many things..So sad...

The speaker ask can you earn rm 10000 per month?I hope i can..but that seem impossible to me..haha..I very materialistic?? Maybe i am..But i hope i can give a better life to my family only..Noneed they worry too much..My mum can rest well and noneed work so hard...Thanks daddy and mummy for what you al did for us..:-)...Hope for all the best in future..

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Dull

I was finding some nice, meaningful and artistic pictures just now...Those picture that attract me are dull ,sad or lonely feel pictures...I not really look at those colourful pictures..Is that reflect my mind and my world right now?
The background of my blog nw is one of the picture i get..Imagine yourself stand right high as the girl and thinking..So artistic..haha...Hope you all like it too..

9 June

Today is your birthday..Last year i went to give u a suprise..There are so many things happen to us this year..You asked me dont go find you..I din go,or maybe i wont go also...I knew you are working,and you said you will come to find me tonight..No matter what is going to happen in future,i still think and really wish that we can enjoy tonight..When i know you are coming,i m very happy... When you told me that you are not coming i still ok..Am i already used to it?? Yup,i thought i become stronger already...Cause it already 2 months we din meet at all d...However,i m still crying when i blogging this post.I knew my antibodies against sadness will be stronger.Everything going to be stop soon....Anyway,i will still wish you Happy 21st birthday.....

Bad result

I get my sem 2 result on 9 of june 2009...It not really good indeed...Most of the important courses i just get A-...That is break my heart..Most sad for me is when i know my oral interaction skills get a B+...

Did i tried my best in study in that sem?? Did my english really that poor?? I cant believe it....My result told me i m that lazy and poor in english language...My confident like fly away at this moment.My passion follow it...I lost both of that...

However,after a lots of my friends that console me..I feel better for now..I know i should not be sad by my fault that i made...What i should do is dont care what will going on in the future,but try my best first...As long as i learn,that is enough...
Thanks for those who console and confort me...Thanks for you all..You all know who yo are..:)

Monday, June 8, 2009

Bad guy and Good guy



I saw him again in friday night...The guy who i think is a good guy when i work..After stop working and recall back,i realise that he is not a good guy..This same incident happend to me twice already..When i was young i always believe those who close with me is the best people,when i look back i knew that i am absolutely wrong..This guy is my manager..He used to date with my collegue who very close with me..I help them to keep secret so that the others in office wont get to know..After we stop work,my friends broke with him..I met him accidently twice,but the girl beside him is totally different in person..A young and rich guy have the ability to change girlfriend that often? Or every guy is like that?I really dont know....I hope i can clear of who is the real good person in future...

In contrast,a guy can protect a girl with his life..He realise who is the most important person and his love when he gonna to lost her...This is the good guy we call?Got how many this type of guy left?Those i mention was i watched in drama..wahaha...However,drama is totally not real in this world..I wish i can get a guy like that,but i also know the chance for me to get is very less..Because i m not that pretty and perfect as the heroin too...haha

People mention that you will get to know who is the most important to you when u near to the death devil..I always asked m i important to you?But why i din ask myself who is important to me?I really damn selfish....We should treasure of what we have...I also know that i should not continue to give myself excuse and stop learning...Forget those which hunt me and do everything in my own...Gambatteh,Rachel!!!

Sunday, June 7, 2009

LOVE and helpless


Read an article in newspaper about love and relationship..There state that:


  1. Date with a guy or a girl for at least three months first before start a relationship..

  2. Dont ever marry if just dating for less than half year..

  3. Love cant continue with doubt and helpless because problems that keep in your heart will come out one days

These are the 3 points that i get from it..I agree with these and maybe i m facing these..

Bad Effect of Gambling

My friend told me that he need jobs cause he owe loan shark money..I dont believe him and think he was just kidding..Until the day i worked together with him..



I can feel he change a lots even i m nt that close with him..His happiness was gone..His gentlement gone..really sad of that..I asked him why?Now i believe he really owe loan shark..He told me that he lose his money in football gamble.He went to casino in genting and end up with losing as well..I cant believe a guy who same age and study in uni with me can addicted to gambling deeply..He told me i wont understand unless i try and win big money...



Did you feel regret and will stop gambling?This question pop out from me..He answer me that he wont,and he will go gambling again when he got money..That's very suprise me..However,i not dare to advise him or tell him not to do so....When i saw his sad and worry face,i can feel the effect of gambling...It scary till i cant imagine..That's why gambling take many life......So guys,please dont ever start gambling...I beg you all..NO GAMBLING PLEASE..

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Oreo Day 1


First day working in giant nilai. My job is to distribute the oreo sampling biscuits..I have to stand for a very long time..My foot is totally redness already and very painful indeed..I work together with my friend,and he have to wear the oreo biscuit costume.That is damn hot..He keep on complaining..I know he may nt a good guy but will be a good people..haha....anywhere i think he did a good job..


No matter how,i also have some fun experience there..When i gave the biscuit to the kids,some of them not take the biscuit instead they open thier mouth and want me feed them..They are so cute by open their mouth..haha..My friend act as a big biscuits..He attract many people come over here and become a superstar cause there are many people who ask to take photo together with him..haha...


The job is tired but at least i still can get over it..That make me feel better....

Friday, June 5, 2009

I am sorry..

Many people suprised that why i can do such crazy things in my life? I scared at first,but my sixth sense told me it will be alright..That's why i go for it..I knew it may wrong for me to do that..But i did...I knew it is very unfair to him...Maybe i m really that bad and maybe anthomaniac..You told me that you not really trust him, and this is every unfair to someone else....My heart is painful and my mind is stuck..i am sorry to both of them...I know i may hurt both of them..I am sorry....

I know i m selfish..Maybe that's why i dont know how to choose..I very clear that i have to stop my this selfish thinking and action...No matter how hard for me, no matter there are still how many tears i need to fall,i still will come out with a answer.I will assure that answer is the best for you all and nt for myself..

I not dare to hope your forgiveness..If my vanish can make all of us feel better,i rather to do that...

Thursday, June 4, 2009

H1N1 Flu Virus


This is friday morning.A peaceful morning for me..When i was reading newspaper,the working agent called me and ask me how to pass the product to me.I got no car and at home alone,really cant think of any method d.haiz..what to do? I was distracted by the news in the paper - 1 new case of H1N1 patient was found in seremban..Oh my god,that is the place my whole family go always..Start to worry my mum,my family and even myself..Any precautions we should take?? Peaceful gone in this moments..And it is still bleeding which worry me more...Here i pray to God,please take care of all my family and friends...

Out Of Wedlock Birth


My mum and I went to have lunch in a friend's shop.. We found out that the daughter of the shop's owner is going to divorce with her husband..The girl is just same age with me..Of course, their married base is the out of wedlock pregnancy..They just married for 2 years and now will end up with divorce..What a sad thing?..According to my mum news,they divorce beacuse of 'house violent' and the husband start taking pill...This girl who same age with me is a pretty girl and she work as a beautician..The time they were marry, all the people around keep whispered that they are not match..I agree with that also..haha..Just wish the girl all the best...Even my mum also keep on feel sympathize with...and i just can nod my head.

There are a lot out of wedlock birth nowadays as my population test book stated..I wonder how a girl going to handle when they get to know they pregnant already..This must be a huge stress to explain to their parents and friends..How a girl going to handle those physiologycal change in their body? For me,i sure cant handle it well...That's a big responsibilty that i cant imagine...Therefore,i quite pity to those get that experience..and hope they are all well and happy...The main point is please think twice before you do anything...

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Trustworthy

This must be comtinue with the last week incident..I rejected the job in weekend and make my mum angry of it...Today,i recieved a call from the agent to ask me work on this coming weekend..I very happy and tell my mum...She doubt whether this time i will working or not and dont happy so early...swt to heard the responce from her...I lost my trustworthy...It a sad thing i think...I must work hard for get it bad d...When you make a mistake,people may wont trust you anymore..Therefore, we must think twice before we make decision..That's the lesson i get....:)

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Mosquito's favourite




Some research found out that mosquitos love the O+ blood...Mosquito suck people blood depend on the chemical smell that emit by everyone..The amount of this chemical emition is different for every single person..Therefore people with that blood type should always be the victim of mosquitos but it is also depend of the chemical emition as well..Rachel Lim Kay Ling is the victim with O+ blood...Here is some picture to prove..haha..

Growth up....

I recall when i was small and studies in primary school, I am one of the child who almost never cry..This is because i knew that i have to be tough, if not my classmates sure will laugh at me...Therefore,i will tried my best to endure the sad feeling...I am eager to do well in everything indeed, i hate others children better than me maybe...Time after time,i am growth up now...I know when a person growth up the problems she face will increase...But, i am not tough like i was small...In contrast,my tears come out very easily..Why will it like that? I got no i dea...I always hope that my EQ will get higher and higher.....................

Short hair




I get my short hair at about april of 2008 after kept long hair for about 7 years..Many people said i look better with short hair...Anyhow,all guys like girl with long hair more..I have to admit that sometime i will miss my long hair when saw others girl can stylish their long hair..Today,i went to a hair cut..The guy who service me is those who was cut for me last time..I even cant recognise him cause he cut his long hair down and totally change his image..From that,we can know that hair really is an important part of someone..This guy look not bad and professional...I very happy with his service and my new hairstyle even it getting shorter and shorter..Anyway,it look fresh...I like it... :)

Monday, June 1, 2009

Decision

When the conclusion and decision i going to make is clearer,my heart is more pain and tears is getting more..I know i have to strangethen my heart to make those decision..Give me time please..I think i found out the problem d...Now,just have to wait the right time ......

Mystery girl in drama

A girl that look mystery in 1 singapore drama..She came find the guy whenever she want and never leave any contact for that guy..The guy absolutely love her..But she is too mystery and she just always look sad and quiet..Nobody know what she is thinking..One day,they found that the girl came to find this guy is just because he look very similar to her ex boyfriend who already dead..This guy was very sad when he knew about the girl like him just because of his similar face..However,he told the girl that he dont care about just being a replacement,as long as she let him love her...The girl reject his requirement and she still very suffer that she know she cant do that cause she still love her ex boyfriend very much..I feel i can understand what the girl suffering for and the reason why she reject the guy...She know if she did that,she will be very selfish...The relationship of her n her bf already leave a scar that inside her heart and this will last for maybe whole life.........She dont ever want to hurt anyone else..

Sleepy made tradegy

My eyes lip is very heavy and painful even just in the afternoon...Maybe is because of cried too much...I went for a sleep cause my eyes too uncomfortable already..After i awake,I realise my dad is scolding down there..i faster went down and see what happen...Just i reach down stair,the floor is very messy because of my stupid dog...My dad just keep on scolding at me..and I got no change to said anything...Haiz......Maybe i am too lazy as he said d...I know it is very hard,but i still have to pass through this difficult time...Maybe nobody will understand what am i thinking,i have to try my best as well......What a bad day of mine???