Case 1: Plan to buy a cake to celebrate my sis's birthday, I took less cake and paid more due to rushing of time.. How good if I insisted to check before leave. I had thought about want check, but I just left it in my mind.
Case 2: Cake cutting ceremony for celebrating my sis birthday. The second sis back late, the eldest sis insist to cut cake without continual waiting. I showed my madness as I think since already wait for so long and why don't just continue to wait. What make me mad is when she said she wan sing birthday song and cut the cake alone, it make the purpose of me to buy the cake celebration meaningless if everyone din celebrate together. The ending was not so nice as what we want.
Case 3: Monday period which is very painful and make me frustrated for whole day.
Case 4: He turned to be unhappy due to some car problem. Furthermore, I hurt my sis. I accidentally spoke some bad word towards her. I even sent a message to her even though she just make mum unhappy by not back on time as she promised. However, I found that she was sicked.
Case 5: Recently, I found that I lost in patient to help my parent in doing works. Just now, mum asked me to help something in settle her email. Of cause I cant remember her email and I just came up to help after she called me for many times. At last, she frustrated by kept mumbling about it is so hard to beg people for helping. I can saw she was like heartache. When I came up, without waiting me finished to look at the problem, she just shut down the laptop. It just shocked me and pull me down so deep..
I just saw myself in my mum's attitude. I somewhat like being like her when I am frustrated. Hence, I have no right to blame anyone.
I am just a girl that no use. I am just so out of the dream attitude that I want myself to own. However, I found I do not have single of those good attitudes..Kind, sympathy, optimism, hardworking all these are cant found on me..
I am just sucks.....
