Move and Step Forward

Nice tang lung festival organised by students college 17,UPM.. I like the performance, and the little lantern all over the basketball court is the my preferable.. The festival ambience was so strong, and the little lanterns were very cute.
Before the activities, saw you settled in the basketball court. You lead your team to decorate and did work in the basketball court. This shown your leadership that you learned. I happy to see this, but just din tell you.I also realize lots of girls took photo with you, show you are so famous o..haha..
You told me that you are not confident. Actually everyone not confident, but confident can be earn little by little when you move forward, did some work that you think is you are not capable before..We learn step by step, moving forward step by step. Every university students need that. You did a good job, at least you move faster than me..Shame on me..haha
Anyway, be confident, not afraid of trying, keep working hard, the bright and colourful life and lovely sky belong to everyone of us..GAMBATTEH!!!

Theory and Application

Long time din take bus as my transport. I dunno the system was changed to you have to buy the ticket before you broad the bus instead of give money to the driver straight away. When i enter the bus, the driver requested me to buy the ticket first. Oh no, i had to go down and bought the ticket.
After get my ticket, i sat at one place and the bus started to move.
When we reached one bus stop, there were few older broad in to the bus. I just stood up and lets one of them to sit on my place. Sorry that there is no enough for them. However, there were many youngster who also sit on their place. They even younger than me. Some are couple and stick together as they cant see others. Why are they dont want to stand up. I feel great cause i capable stand for half hour in the bus. They dunno they should do tat? Quite disappointed with youngster nowadays..
Well, Malaysian do learn the theory of respect the older and should give their seat to the older, but how many of them do apply it? I got no answer........

Tsunami

Hang out with my friend for a movie - tsunami.. It is a korean movie. This is a touch and reality movie for me..When you reach the terrible situation, human cant do anything,no matter how advance the technology is. I asked myself will i scared if i meet those situation, the answer is yes for sure.. You can see how selfish of human when they want to survive, you also can know who is the one who treat you the best and feel the love among human being. Human being really complicated..haha.. The scene that make me drop my tear is when the hero chose to sacrified himself and lets the other guy. This hero is a honest and naive guy.The girl played around him and even said he is poor lubber. However, when reached the moment he changed become so man as he is a lifeguard. He showed his love to the girl. No many guy who can do this to the girl he love instead of her bf who look handsome and rich. Well, CANT JUDGE THE BOOK WITH ITS COVER,this is the meaning. This movie really give me lots of motivation. I know i should appreciate time and do whatever i like and appreciate those who love me, and those i love.

You may know..

We used to did something that we also dont know the reason why we did that..
Cried without reasons, run without planning, played basketball without thinking,etc..
We may dont know why we did it right now, but i believe we will know the reason one day in the future..

Changed

You said i m changed a lots...You said i wont do this and that last time...
We always complain others about how he/she treat us and whats the wrong things he/she did..
Did we ever stand and try to understand their view?
Why he or she is changed?Whats make he/she changed..All this we just dont care...
Time for us to learn....
Girls just need others try to understand them..
Girls may be emotional, they just want more attention..Thats all...

Family

I heard a bad news from my mum..It make my mum moody,i do too.. Because of some problem in communication, my mum have to make a big scarified and a big payment. It make me even dont like my relatives. I know maybe what in my mind is very childish..I just cant control myself..
I can dont want money, dont want boyfriend, dont want many things, but FAMILY i cant..
For now,i really cant forgive those people, i dont think i can call them when i saw them..Time do help me please....
Mum, i really hope this thing will be settle down soon..Just like what you mention, money is just something that around us.
I just wish i can protect and contribute to my family with my limited ability...

Keep Quiet....

I m sorry that said something i should not and make you into trouble..
I cant bare what i think and must find out an answer..Did i really feel better when i know the answer?.
I m a busybody.Always hope to know everything that happened and know what others said.
WHat benefit do i get if i know all the gossip and incident?
I wonder........
I keep blame myself for make things worse...
Can i stop my childish action and be myself?
I rather choose to be a quiet girl start from today...
I will rather just do what i like and focus on my own..
Enough for being a busybody person,I start to hate myself like that..
To prevent i hate myself and make things worst..
Keep Quiet,rachel......

Distance

Not everyone know the real meaning of love. Got feeling = love or like? How about suddenly feeling gone?Maybe u like someone without ur notice and realise.
After i heard the story of you all went to the mines.How you and her not in good mood..I was shocked when i know all that.It make me more sure that she really like you..I found that she so like you,it quite make me worry..I know i should do something...
I know i should not let you feel that you got hope..I may hurt you..The main problem now is when i know she like you so much..I may hurt her too...I unable to hurt so many people..It will make me hate myself..
I am thinking that we may need to keep distance between us..She is my housemate,i should care for her...I will try my best to keep this beautiful distance and still be best friend..:-)

BAD BAD BAD

Today only i sure that our microb test2 will be held on next wednesday night..First thing to do is to message my sis after know this news...My mum went to buy ticket,but already sell finish.
Dont hope because of me then make my sis's holiday gone like that..Feel so sorry...Why i always did something that no benefit to others and just make trouble??

Sorry to hear

After maternal class,i decided not to have a movie with my friends.Being a ffk queen again(ffk-put aeroplane).The main reason is i dont know whats the purpose for me to go there as i nt really interest in that movie and i hope to sit down even do nothing.Lazy~~~
Received a message from my sister.I being inform that my church friends father pass away due to cancer..What a sad news indeed..It make me wan pray that hope he will back to heaven and be together with the Lord..
We should appreciate more to people around us instead of waste many time...

Be a good girl...

She did a lots that make my daddy and mummy worry and uncontrollable..
My mum just keep complaining to me and wan share her sadness with me..
Even my eldest sis also called her as trouble maker..
I dun like my parent keep complaining to me.I know they are worry and wan find a way to release..
What i can do is only be a good daughter..
and i should behave myself...
I did a lots that i think quite crazy when i was young..
When i know i m still immature,i will like to choose not to hurt anyone..
I know you all treat me very good,this is the reason i dont wan you all to wait..
I dont even know why gt guys will like girl like me...
For what i did so much last time,i feel myself is so complicated..
For me,u just like a white and fair blank paper that never being use...
Dont hope i make black spot on it..
What you all should get is a good and innocent girl,
then build a sweet and pure love..
I dont hope to hurt anyone..
Immature make me cant be very loyalty..I not sure it just a simply feeling o what..
MY past also make cant really feel safety in love..
Maybe i m someone who hard to feel safe...

Weekly

Just finish my metabolism test..It make me suffering a lots..
However,last week was maternal test,
next week is statistic and microbs test..
I already cant remember how long the tests come week by week d..
This is university life?i wonder..

Course night 2009

This is my 2nd year course night..Well,course night mainly organise to welcome those 1st year and great those in last year.As i m in 2nd year,we were just organizer. However,when i 1st reached there,i was so lonely because all my friends gt their own job.The only things i can do is wait and eat.. I was participate in one couple dancing.When i was dance,i am so nervous until i gt hand shaking again.My partner felt it and make him nervous too.I should said sorry to him..haha.. Got an event that guys will invite girls to dance.As nutrition course got many girls and amount guys just like dinosaur..Therefore,i think i will just sit there and look at people dance..what surprise me is when i was sat there,suddenly someone held my hand and pull me out..When i think back now,it was such a scene that i only saw in movie before..Have to agree that it is quite romantic..Thanks to him too...

First Time

Microbe lab again..today handle with virus,so have to go in and out virology lab for many time..For me,being first time sitting in front of Laminar flow cabinet alone,do work alone and guide by the instructor..Nervous and shaking hand disturb me a lots..However,the kind lab assistant said first time always like that and this is why we need to learn.Thanks her alots..
After that,i have to complete my work in virology lab..This time watching by an arab PHD student.
He in charge of this lab..He stand aside watched me do my work.When he saw my hand shaked,he asked me is i nervous.I answer as yes.After that,my friend told me that he laugh at me..Damn...he should encourage student instead of laughing..Being a PHD student is not everything,just a normal person too..Hope next student wont really care about his laugh too..
Conclusion,i did learn a lots this time...