Who can teach me what to do?

I always dont know the decision that i made is correct or not? I m very confusing now...Why everytime i saw your message,my tears will come out? Do you know i really feel very bad sometime..Why i always have to pass through moment like this? I know you may face problems,feel stressfull right now...Why i should be the one who suffer while you still can stay happy by yourself when you are stressfull? I really dont understand...How can you stay happy and make the people around you suffer.your answer is u dont know as well..Then,i suggest you to change this bad behaviour..you just said wait and see how first..My life is going hard to make decision..When you know there are someone who chasing me, you already think to give up..M i so unimportant to you? I keep on asked myself this question for uncountable time...When i told you that why you want hurt me like that? You just reply that dont only think myself is hurt,cause you are feeling hurt as well..Did you mean i selfish? Maybe i should admit that i am...You know you nt clever in 'pujuk' me,but why you just will said sorry and din change even you clear about what is your problem? My heart is very painfull is this moment...What can i do?Who can teach me? Why there are nobody can understand me ? Maybe i m the one who already predeterminate wont get blessedness and hapiness...Cause i really not a good girl.....Maybe i should be stay single...To punish myself? Scare of sadness? Dont want any guy be the next victim of mine? I dont know......Can I just disappear in this world for a short moment by not contact with anyone???? haha..... I really dont know what m i typing now, this is the first time i type with a wet face...

Eating ABC

Today is a very hot day...At night,we my sibling n me)decide go to eat ABC to release some heat of our body..haha..ABC is stand for Air Batu Campur in malaysia...It is a dessert.haha..When I enjoyed my ABC in one of the famous shop in my hometown-Mantin,I met some of my secondary school friends..Few years din meet d..I want pretend i din see them..At last,one of my friends miss call me...As a sporty girl,i must go there to chat awhile with them..haha..When i approach them,i realise that they nt really looking at me...i also dont know why they will be like that?M i weird to them? As i already there,i tried my best to think some of the topic to ask them...Most of them are already working or study in college..Then i asked one girl where she working now,she answer me that she works as contractor...i know she is joking but i dont feel to laugh at that moment...After awhile,i have to go d and say bye to them..Suddenly feel that our distance become so so so so far...I remember i was very close with the girl last time....TIME really is a relationship KILLER............

Quiet morning..

Yesterday was scolded by my mom...never talk to her till today morning...When i woke up,she was preparing some food in the kitchen..We both just keep quiet all the time...The feeling was so strange...Finally,i start to break the ice and went to kitchen to ask her something....She just answer me in a simple way...dont know whether she is still angry me or not...haiz....Hope everything gonna be fine after this...

Feeling Of Hungry

From yesterday still now,i already more than 18 hrs din eat anything..Am i hungry?Why i din eat? I also dont know....I may know that i m hungry but this hungry feeling not enough for me to take action go for food and rise my apetite..Or there is something wrong with my hormone receptor and hypothalamus??Therefore,my brain fail to send the signal to tell me the hunger...haha....From this,i found i got the potential to join the charity programme which need to be stay hungry for 30 hrs...haha....

Dark journey

I was drove alone went to seremban just now..The road was so dark and less of cars...I think a lots in my journey back home...I got the frighten feeling when i look at the dark and quiet condition around me..Izzit our life journey same with the dark road that in front of me? If it is,then i find it very hard to continue my journey on my own..I felt so lonely and dependless with that...I know it is hard and i hv to face it...What m i can do? Can it be brighter?i hope.......

28th of May

Today,i went for celebrated my housemate's birthday in kl..It very happy and special trip because i din sing k with those guy in my course...Around 5pm,i back home d...When i reach batang benar ktm station,i knew that my brother is coming to fetch me home...i felt nt comfortable when knew is my bro driving...I reached at batang benar d,but i din see any familiar car...I knew there may something bad happen...Finally,i saw my dad n my bro came d...I dunno what happen jz now...From their conversation in car,i knew that my brother was knocked a dog..Sorry to my brother that,because of me,his first accident happen.....
Another thing,i get a job that work in nilai this weekend..I reject it d since i have to go PD with my friend...Today,that company accidently send the work sample to my house..Therefore,i have to return the sample to my friend which i recommend him to replace me working...When my mom get to know this incident,she was so angry and scold me why i dint go work since i already promise others d..."Why u so nt responsible?" ...I dont know my choice correct or not?Why i must work?What mean by responsibility?I really dont know d...I start to feel that i really nt responsibility and i am useless too...What going to happen to a person which is useless in her future?Sure she nt going to be a successfull person...I really nt dare to think about it d...Can i just dont want everyone to care for me...let me alone and suffer..maybe i will be better..Din eat dinner tonight?Angry my mom?Punishment for myself?Answer --->Dont know...

Movie

Many of my friends asked me out for a movie recently..I reject all of them..I don't know why i did that too...Maybe there is not the right time,not the right place,not the right people and not the right mood for me to go for a movie...Who know??? : )

Passion Fruit Cheesecake-Part 2

Today,i can taste my cake d...erm...taste nice..But,i m nt very satisfied with it...Hope next time i will improve my skill on it...It is a great beginning..Thanks for those who pray for my cake..hehe

Passion Fruit Cheesecake-Part1

Finally i can try to make a cheesecake myself...and this cheesecake name passion fruit cheesecake. I try it hard,but i am happy while making it..Nw,the cheesecake still inside my refrigerator.It have to been frozen for a night first...Anyway,i made a mistake in the making process..So,nw i really hope it can done successfully..Pray for it ya..haha..

Someone ask me issit i too free and nothing to do after i told him about my cheesecake..I quite sad when heard what he asked...Maybe what he said is right too...It is ok la,i know myself learn a new thing i m happy with it during my holiday..That's already enough for me..hehe...

What you want?

Last night,i was chat with a big sister..She gave me a lots of opinion and advise..I have to thanks her a lots...She quite suprising me..I can felt her maturation fr our concersation...She told me that she never regret the decision she made,cause she know clearly about what she want..(even she just fail in something)..When i heard this,i recall the radio dj was talked about the same thing in that afternoon...The dj said,you wont succeed unless you know what you want...Yup,thats absolutely right....I must make sure what i want....Do you know what u want too????

Dragon boat festival

Dragon boat festival is coming soon..Nowadays, many people not really celebrate this festival d...In my hometown here,we still will eat 'bakcang' during this festival..Today,my mom is making those bakcang,some are order by others d...The picture is i capture when my mom is making...haha...Hope u all can recall this special eating bakcang festival...haha...dont swallow your slaver...next time post 1 picture that show i eating de..haha....

ABC

Just watched a singapore drama...A funny part that i would like to share...A girl met a guy in a place.The girl asked the guy u r not singaporean right?where are you come from? (because the guy just talked english in a funny way,we called it ABC slang)haha..The guy answering yes..i m ABC which stand for America Born Chinese...I can knew the artist purposely talked english in that way..n nt natural at all..haha..it make me think of a guy that i just knew..He talked like a ABC too...i like that slang as u all know i really like ABC..wahaha..and the picture up there is a vy lovely example of ABC...my favourite...Daniel Wu..haha

A hard question

Last night,i was called my friend...We talked about love....Suddenlly she pop out a question that really hard for me...She asked:" How you measure love?" I was stuck,i really dont know how to answer it... Love can be measure??? This question like nobody can answer... Anyway,it really make me to think a lots...hehe..

How you think about yourself..

"Don't care how others think about you,the most important is how you think about yourself." I heard this sentence many times,and i m totally agree with it.. Everyone hope to do what the sentence mention,but there are how many people successfully done it?? Even myself now also learning very hard to make it...Gambatteh ya!!! :)

First time leave home

Today is 24th may 2009,my brother Klien Lim had left home to peteling jaya for prepare his study there...He rent an apartment with 6 others friends...A small issue is that 2 of his friend may dont want stay,but finally they also stay d..So,dont just you all think that only girls like to make trouble..haha...He stay in master room with 3 others friends which are his best friends..I follow him went to his apartment today...I dint help much but just look at them did their work..They started set up their cupboard and all that...After that,my dad n i head back.At first,we still worry we will lost..Luckily,gt a uncle who guide us...Finally,just hope my brother and his friends will grow up n be independent.Here is my blessing for u all