Cheated

Somewhat realised that myself and mum are being cheated.. My guiltiness cant stop from now..

haiz...I must learn to be smarter, better, and more optmism in order to survive in this society.

I doubt of my ability and capability non-stop...

Mutant is no exception

People needs love..

Love is so amazing and great.

It can't be described by any word.

Nobody can denied that he or she don't need love..

There is no exception.

Lonely without love is suffering for everyone even u went through evolution to become a mutant.

There is a powerful sentence that "you are not alone".

It will be means a lot to everyone.

When a mutant in the movie heard this sentence, his heart melt and warmth.

From here, we can realize the amazing grace of love..

The fact is---

~~We need love~~

From study to work

The most common topic that I share with others nowadays is working life..

It is absolutely hard when you have to change from a freedom bird to an nine hours working office lady.

First of all, you will feel like your life is ended with work alone. Non-stop complaint and moaning are never leave the mouth.

After first week of work, I found out that working is hard, I started to think of some alternative way to make future life better. The most easier and "senang" way will be marry to someone rich. Once you married, you may no need to work and get back your freedom with money from your husband.. Thats sound nice perhaps. When I went back to home, my sister teased me about my late realization about working and everyone going through the same working life as mine.

During the second week, I adapted better to the working life and the marry thought was become lesser and lesser. I should be empower woman due to I am educated girl but not yet a woman. *haha* However, I need to go to a camp that starve myself in order to excrete the mucous plaque which is harm to our body, meanwhile have to work as committee. The hardship of work is still with me. In addition, the camp is in the weekend which mean we have to work in the weekend without extra pay and replace off day. Hence, I think be a government server which have more rest and off time will be great. The thought jump from marry to government server.

We need to work back on monday straight after the camp. That's tiring indeed. We tried to figure out the current salary of our colleague, surprisingly it is not much and have to be multi-tasking. After attended wedding dinner of a friend, all of us found that money is hard to earn. Now, be a teacher is coming to my mind.

For the fourth week, everything is better. I got my first salary. Whao!! But it is not until rm300. what a poor girl..However, I am just a intern which no right to ask for any benefit. Therefore, be a boss will be the best after having a long thought. haha..

Came to the fifth week, my second and bigger presentation is coming. It is a new challenge which I worry and like at the same time. A fun dilemma of course. However, came to the day before presentation, many of the sick symptoms show out. Maybe I am weak during menstrual period. Hope I can getting well after have a rest.. God bless...