Stress starts overwhelming me~~

STRESS~~~~~~~~~~
REASONABLE STRESS~~~
UNREASONABLE STRESS~~~~~

New sem?New target?

I been so luckily and selected randomly by the Mr Hazel who teach us writing skill to be the class representative. There are two of us,1 malay and me.. First job is to photocopy the course manual for the rest, the malay girl already leave me alone..Sweat..hope next time she wont.. Being representative for a small class like this not really tired but just lazy..haha
Another lecturer, been stand in front of me keep look at me when he talked. I just pretend listen when he did like this. My awkward reaction lets the whole class laugh out. I know my face turn super red that time. He said i very shy and ask what is my name. When i told him, he said nice name. I wonder.. Then he said same as artist from hong kong.. The sound of laugh fullfill the whole class.. Now everyone called me superstar..haiz..

teeth

Since i was young, i knew that my teeth are not pretty and tidy as others. Many people did laugh about it. I accepted it with tears in my heart..The causes from my parent is i did like to consume candy and refuse to see dentist. I think most of the children passed through this..
When i grew up,many people turn to comment why i din go for teeth colligation when i was 13 or 14. This time the reason from parent is i scare of painful and refuse to go. Well, i really do not understand why people have to undergo teeth colligation. Even now, the dentist also said it is very hard to take care of teeth like mine.. Now i was growing up,i know the benefit and reason why people do that. But it is too late for me..
My heart keep blaming..But who and what should i blaming? My parent?Myself? Because of my parent not highly educated?or i m too stupid coz dunno the benefit to do it?or blame myself why love candy?I really no idea d..
Maybe i can go fight for myself. Never be too late.. I can dont bother anything and go for private clinic all that.. I knew that.. Chances must find by yourself and you had to chase for it.. I agree, but i cant too selfish. I know if i fight and chase for it, my parent have to pay for it.. I just cant stand this..
I dont know this main cause which make me no confident all the time will leave me or not? I just have to try to accept it in a way.. May god help me,i need your strength. I know i m not the worst people in the world,i should be glad.. god,please do let me feel better and settle the most problem of it. I wil already satisfied and be happy..

Rich is not everything, knowlegde does..

Accompanied my grandma and mum went to a wedding dinner. We planned to overnight there as there quite far away from Seremban.
There has an uncle who are very rich but not highly educated. I found he was good and nice as he treat my grandma very nice. He came and talked to me and my mum, he ask am i stil study. My answer is definitely yes. He said that if a child good in study then his/her parent have to work hard to find money. For him just like waste money.. And he added that his son studying in taiwan, and wan grad d but not continue for university. He just ok and said come back do business then ok d, and here got a lots of business to let him choose and do. He lets me end with stupefied. Even u re rich but i think noneed like that and really made me dont like him straight away..
I used a long time for calm down myself. But i stil wish to go home and not overnight. I keep quiet, very quiet at the dinner and think of methods and ways to back seremban. Finally, i success to persuade my mum to go back. My mum told my dad that i m just like a baby who keep noisy for back home earlier. Mummy, i am your baby forever..haha

My holiday

This is the most vacation holidays that i ever had. Start from hanging around in kl for singing,ice skating. After that went to sibu,sarawak experience the 1st flight in my life. This follow by kelantan trip. And then my birthday celebration in sunway and look out point. Finally is my singapore trip, drinking with my sis and cousin are amazing..Love them so much..
Wish i can always be around with them...
Love mummy,daddy,auntie,uncle, sisters,bro, ts, hm, isaac.
Looking forward to chinese new year with you all...

Life is short

A girl was just 22 years old but detected had lymph cancer.. We always expected life should be in our plan, but didnt expect it will run out of plan.
We always think this and that for many times, worry this and that and even scare how others think about us. What in my mind now is just do my best and treasure who i love and what i have..
Hope the best for the girl,everything gonna be alright to her..

Carry on

I knew that you interested in a girl after half year of broke up period. I dunno how to describe my feeling.A little bit disappointed? maybe..haha..I think thats normal.
I know how you treat her better than me.. Maybe you are grow up? Or just because got your friends to guide you this time.
After some time of thought, i know i should be happy for you. You really should carry on your life neither me too.. I should not want you to get through what i experience which waiting for 1 year..Thats quite a silly action..Everything had pass, may rainbow come to our life..
I wish and bless you have a best life,and get the lovely girl. Good luck, my friend...
Bare in mind that must be happy, and get your true love..^^

21st birthday

Is 21st birthday very important? Did i forget simplest is the happiest? I did think of many ways to celebrate my birthday.. But is it a need to celebrate ceremoniously ??
I did passed my birthday. It is just a day anyhow.. I did happy and i want to thanks to those who be with me and celebrate with me. Even i felt like somewhat i force you all went out to chilled with me..haha..
I know i growing to be an adult, i realize my deficiency of being a perfect adult, girl and person.
I will try my best to be tough,to learn, to be independent, to settle or do work as a mature people in my life journey.
Thanks to those who mean alots and special to me especially my family..

LOVE you versus brave and dare

I love you,can you be my girlfriend?
Saying i love you is a breeze..sweet words pop out from mouth so easily..
When inform by the girl that she have AIDS, lead the guy stupefied..
The girl asked back, did you still dare to love me????
We always think love is easy, did we really understand love???
Do you still dare and brave???

Tear of joy

Tear drop from a guy just because can saw his loving girl smile through tears...
Romance, True, Felicity is there..
Girls try our best going for it ya..