temporary and last

I realised ......

When there is puppy love, the feeling is strong and exciting. However, it lasts temporarily, and loneliness will come back after all..

Nevertheless, if we meet true and right love, only little love u will feel. You may feel bored at first, but it is the one that can accumulate little by little and lasts longer..

love love love~~~

Complicated~~~

hehe~~

Suitable and lonely

I had been passing my days at home very unproductively..I didn't study at all, just will stay together with my tv. haha..

I saw my friends' photos. They went to many places, clubbing and some event with alcoholic for sure.. Once in a while, i will hope i just can be like them.. I want to wear very pretty, go to that type of places.. I dreamed to pass through a very 'city' and materialistic life. However, i never do due to lack of money..haha..

Now when i still will be jealous as well. But, i will ask myself, m i suitable for that type of life? Do i have the gut and money to pass through that?

Even if i am able to do that, after a party, after being pretty and even after getting the prettiest clothe and most expensive handbag..

Will i go back to loneliness after all? Thats a good question i think to all the girls....

Proposal presentation

Today we went to our seniors' proposal presentation session. Try and Imagine you have to talk by yourself with 3 lecturer sitting there and judging u. The room was cold, the air was freezing.. Somewhat tension moment. Even though i was just a listener, i also felt nervous.. Lousy me..haha..

Start worrying for my time. Well, worry just for awhile..then i will be ok.

JUST LET TOMORROW WORRIES, WORRY BY ONLY TOMORROW..

TODAY enjoy!!haha..

type A

I knew i am a type A person. I just don't want to admit as i know thats not any compliment. Somebody said i was crazy in study..Well, m i? I dont think so.. I always just can't fight with my laziness.. I knew i was stressed and frustrated when i felt thats less time and the things were out of my finger tips. To clarify, in my finger tips does not mean i can memories every single word. as long as there is something in my head, i will feel better and not frustrated. I m trying to set my type A personality, i thought i was better compared to last time. In addition, i will work harder. Anyhow, not because type A but punctuality is my way..

I really dislike people who simply reply my msg. I knew i was in bad mood when i was replying the msg. Well, by using pls which was referred to as strong word to request someone do somethg but other will think that i was very fierce. I cant change how others' perception of me. Well, i tried not to bother as well.

Nevertheless, i am still influenced by what others thought about me.. Yet, i failed again..It did let me down.. It was just hard for me to not be influenced by others. I have to jiayou d la.. I knew there will be a lot of same situation waiting for me in future. I should be used to it.

Really hope to talk to someone when i was down in hostel..Sad that there is no one for me to talk to. Last time maybe can talk to him.. have been thking talk to another guy. Well, it seems not so good, n i dun hope anythg happen as before again. Nobody would like to help me as well.

I knew i should go to GOD.. He is the best..

Bless me..thanks..

Stressful test

Just relieved myself from test 2,but there is one test left..

Four tests in a week really messed people up. Whenever I felt there is limited time with thousand load of work, i will feel dizzy.

This is the first time i let stress totally immerse myself. Stress worked on me and let my immune system down. Concentration is difficult when you were sick, this slowed my study progress.

Many of my housemates did give me a lot of medicines. I drank herb tea, vitamin C, and panadol. Many ways I used to combat the sickness.

For sure, I will hope there is someone who can take care of me. However, i knew i have to face it on my own. I will be alright even though my boyfriend is not here. haha..