family and future..

Family is my life.. I can sacrifice everything for it..

I knew that problem is exist, and i am clear that i clueless of it and cant handle it at all..

What can i do, i also wonder..

Why dad will become like that? How i can advise him?

Then how about my mum? She cant understand my dad. Both of them dunno how to face the problem as well..

Today i took my lunch with mum and 2 auntie.. The auntie asked is it my dad stil cant find what he want to do?One of the auntie asked me whether i think mother is very grateful. I node my head silently and together with a smile.. I really agree,i did..

She continue with do you saw many things at home? I shocked and node my head after struggle and thought for awhile. What is she really mean?

She was not the first auntie who told me have to chose partner carefully, open my eyes as large as and as wide as i can.. Told me have to think and have a longer sight in the future..

Bottom of my heart asked, izzit not marry will better in their eyes? Full of question marks in my mind..

I know what is my family is like, even it is not that normal like others. My mum is super grateful for me.. She earn a lots which more than dad.. She is work very hard until she get sick.. Tats make me feel so sad when think of this..Many people think my dad not tat good, and he is just a normal guy. BUT he does really love all of us very very MUCH...

Mum told me that she work hard is ok for her, but at least he must respect the folk..

I dunno how to answer, just keep quiet..

What i know is i LOVE my family......

Searching life partner is so difficult? Or better just be single? Or just the old time guy will be like that?

Step out

I was thought of it for few years, but i still no the courage to step out..All of this because i know the aftermath of it..

Finally, after much struggle, i get to do it..

Sometime i will be a waver, i wonder m i right for this step..

Many people around me give me big courage, i really thanks them for their support especially the special one and my family..

Lots of aftermath i have to face, but i will try my best..

I will be brave for everythg..

Never regret...

Only with you..

it is not that i'm lost or that i don't know what i want

oh i know that i can't have all then fun in the world

yes turns to no, and people may come and go

it's take it or leave it, it's reality, girl

you put on a mask, cos you know you're such a mess

when you walk into a wall, that's when wisdom will call

don't let emotions take you on another ride

for at the end of the ride is back to same old story

but now you know, hands to the sky, now it's time to fly, and you'll say

i know that only with you you can brighten up my day anytime

it's you i hold you in my heart, never far,

always near,so i can wipe my tears off my face, be brave again,

i know i can, only with you

the dawn is breakin' you wake to a beautiful sunrise

oh you know that you can't waste such a beautiful day.

listen now, get out of your own world

why put you heart on these things, and always question why?

now looking back, i was so blind,

couldn't see what's in front of me,

now i'm free, no longer tied to the past

yes things can changed but i don't have to play the same game

so now i know, hands to the sky,

now it's time to fly, hear me say

i know that only with you you can brighten up my day anytime

it's you i hold you in my heart never far

always near so i can wipe my tears off my face

be brave again, i know i can , only with you

Nice song..spoke my heart.

Professor not superman

Even in the drama that i watching, the super brilliant and handsome professor of the physic department may fall into troublesome. He was betrayed by his assistant. If he cant solve the troublesome, he will get lost of the field and cant be a professor. It is because his assistant change the formula program and let him think his experiment already success, but it was wrong. Now the world organisation discover the data in thesis that published were not true. He is in troublesome now.. He has too do the 4 experiments left in a month to assure that what in his thesis was right..rushing for time..

In the drama, the professor sure can settle this problem. Cause it is just a drama. However, It is true that everyone will meet obstacles in their journey...Even super professor will fall down by kicked the stone on the road. So like everyone of us will face calamity. What make the different is, can you stand up after fell down or not..

Grey's anatomy season 5:
smooth rides make for boring stories,
a little calamity, that's worth talking about. (copy from jasmie's blog)

Haha..

P/S: the super professor had a girl who love him to support him when he was down and busy settle the troublesome. He should feel lucky of that..so you do,dr gan....haha..