climbing..

Many problems come in to me..
My handphone keypad spoilt half way. How i going to type message without g,h,i and m,n,o.?
After that, distraction was around me for the whole sunday..
When i determint and tried to find back my way, shoulder making some noise. My head cant move and turn fast and as i wish..Like a old woman..
Maybe it does complained that my long period of sedentary study life or my weak body does ring the alarm?
Damn worry...
Forget to brng the lecture note to class, and drove the emotional and sensitive lecturer crazy..
I am not purposely left my notes at home.Just i m too blur.. Monday blue do come.. My mood was ok just my body is the opposite.
Finally found that period came in the inappropriate time. Luckily still can handle..
Obstacles did happen to test and bother me..
I should be strong to climb...

How to believe?

Shift your choice and opinion just after a day.
Said this and that..
How can i believe in you?

You are so unsure..
Even you may dunno what you want and said..

Lost

I become very weak~~
I very depend on others~~
I not capable to fullfill even just a little work~~
Get mad of because of little matter~~
I upset very easily~~
Emotional very easily~~
Angry very easily~~
I can't endure myself to be like that~~
I know i am very bad to the one who concern me~~
I hate myself, hate my weakness, hate my uselessness, hate evrything about myself..
If you want run away from me for ur best, please take your step~~
I wont stop you or blame anyone of you~~


Thinking of what make me change? because of i had leave my lovely GOD and full of sin~
I am sorry~~
I dont want back to that evil lim kay ling~~
However, i m lost in this moment~~
The frighten of lost is too much, i already cant endure and wan die of that~~

Clever~

Run away from girl that emotional~~
Stay away from girl that not independent~~
Hold on with girl that very weak~~
Leave her who is very irritating~~
Go away from her who very treat you bad~~
If you are clever, please do all this..

Smart guy

Recently found out that many people think that my cup of tea will be someone who look smart.
They do think i had a high requirement..
Well, my outlook really make many people think like that?haha
Maybe my requirement is high, but they should consider that i m not that pretty and perfect as well..
High requirement must give those who had good qualification..haha
You all are overrate me..haha..

Whine...

Unfair draw, More burden, do others work...
All these words that keep in my mind made me crazy and feel hard...
I tried to pursuit myself that do more will learn more.. However, it still cant stop me from whine.
As Dr nasir said, girls always whine. I m one of them..
After whine and moaning, I found that i better start work instead of just whine..
Thanks GOD for let me learn more especially be patient..
I m someone who have nothing in one, but YOU does help me to learn...
Thanks...

Give up

Should i just give up??

Blur~~

Medicine make me blur and feel whole body uncomfortable~~~

Tiring sem

There are strict lecturer, important courses that exist in this sem. All of us exhausted due to many reports and assignments. Our life like nonstop of working. First time feel so busy. Other than homework, communication problem among us also occurs. Work in a team sure have different opinions and suggestion. I think this can solve by discussion and understand.. Well, thing always out of our predict.
Some type of people cant work together with certain type of people? Izzit true? I not so sure. There are relationship among us that become worst and some maybe the opposite when many works come across. I not really know how to handle, and i also not very very care. anyway, it is stil a bad thing for thing become like this.
I wan start to do more preparation of study, doing well in my work, understand all the work that i did, and know clearly of every single word that i typed. When i start do some preparation, i m lost. I dunno where and how to start. Thats make me feel damn bad and i dont know how to come across.
Family matter do bothering me as well. I dont know what is happen when i not at home. I just know there are lack of money. I wonder how my parent, sisters and brother s' feeling. I am sure i will be sad if they feel bad. Thats why i chose just to believe and gave. I know they are far more important than money. I seen to be a money-grubber and love money. Actually, family are always the first for me. I knew this very clear.
Assignments like cant finish, keep change this and that. I wonder why we change just due to someone said how we should do. Maybe because we din step out and ask the person in charge or maybe we very concentrate in class and know everything already. Keep doing and changing make life dull. Many works and problems in mind make mood and life worst...
Weekend please come to rescue me.........